Friday, August 16, 2013

Love and Marriage.

On the 6th of August it was Todd and My 9th anniversary. It was a good day. I have been thinking lately about the past nine years. A lot has happened in those short 9 years of our marriage. Let's see we have dealt with health problems lots of them. We have dealt with lots of illness. Hospital visits, and many Dr. appointments. We have also dealt with a mysteries disease that is wrecking havoc on my body. Todd has seen me passed out cold on the floor. He's heard and seen me cry because the pain was so bad. He's carried me because I have been paralyzed and unable to move on my own. In turn I have seen him twitch because of his epilepsy. I have watched him many nights making sure he didn't have a seizure. I have turned the lights out and stayed very quite because he has had really bad migraines. In the past nine years we have endured sickness and rejoiced in the health.
In the nine years of our marriage we have both rejoiced in the prospect of adding children to our family and then grieved together when I miscarried. We rode this roller coaster a few times more than we would have liked. Yet every time we have looked back later and realized that it wasn't the time for us to have children. This hasn't lessened the pain of those miscarriages but it has helped strengthen our love. We have enjoyed this time of just the two of us together and keep trying to start our family. We know that when the time is right if we have faith and do our part the Lord will bless us with children.
What else has happened in nine years. We have gone through jobs. We have dealt with being unemployed and both the financial burden and the emotional one of that. There has been short periods without a job and then there has been longer periods. We have stuck together and dealt with the emotional, hopeless breakdowns together. We have been each others hope and pushed each other to keep going knowing that a job for Todd would come along.
There have been shouting matches during our marriage. Some nights when we have stayed up late fighting and crying. There have been hurt feelings because of misunderstandings. The Silent treatment has been giving by both of us. Some fights have lasted a long time and others were over just as quickly as they began. I think each and every fight has brought us closer together or at least given us a better understanding of each other. Even after nine years melding together two peoples different ideas has been hard but we keep working at it.
All in all the past nine years has been a bumpy ride but one that I have enjoyed! The past nine years have been work and I don't mind working at our marriage. After all our wedding wasn't our Happily Ever After it was our Happy Beginning because with the promise of time and all eternity we didn't end anything but began something writing our story together. I will take the good, bad, sickness, health, tears, hugs, fights, I'm sorry, and all the things in between. I wouldn't trade any of the things that have happened in our short nine years of marriage for anything. Because everything has made us closer and everyday I fall in love with Todd again. He has made me a better person by being there for me and always encouraging me and being by my side. When Todd came into my life I found my eternal companion that would walk by my side for all eternity. I couldn't ask for anything more. I hope that I make Todd and better person and lift him up and walk by his side. I look forward to many more chapters in our marriage after all this is just the beginning!